I'm Ready



A huge dreams haunting me
They don't event let me feel free for a second
but somehow i do enjoy it
..because I'm Ready!

A huge moment grab my energy
and i let them covering me
i need it for my future
future that i meant to be!

Oh Lord, i put my spirit on You
.Amen.

Jakarta.

menapak lagi



Sungguh sore ini tak jauh berbeda dengan sore biasanya. Hanya saja warna matahari sebegitu jingga hingga wajahmu tampak begitu kemilau, indah. Kau bilang kau tak bisa lupakan genggaman ini, genggaman di ketepian ini, di tepi sulitnya aku menapak jika kau tak ada di samping, jujur.

Ah ya, ternyata kau bukan milikku lagi. Terkadang aku malu, aku bukan siapa-siapa yang tak harusnya berharap terlalu banyak. Aku cuma, aku sekadar.
Tapi baiklah, kalimat ini sudah kukumul sekian musim, walau lancang mungkin untuk kau dengar, tapi biarlah kau tau apa rasaku, aku ingin menapak lagi, bersamamu.

Malang, 2010

Happy Contemplation



'..keep watch over the speed of your words when speaking,
the character of your handwriting,
the quality of your eye contact,
the quickness of your mind to return to center
with each distracting thought..'

Malang, 2010

say it with flower



A good friend of mine visited me several days ago, he asked me how to thread a woman like a lady. These conversation might be not as complete as what we have discussed, but here's the bottom line:

friend: 'i've plan to propose my girlfriend'
me: 'dear God! that's sweet!'
friend: 'but i don't want to say it directly, i want to do something memorable'
me: 'well..we have many ways..'
friend: 'such?'
me: 'bring her to the romantic place, give her a huge surprise, do something she wants..'
friend: 'but don't you think that's common?'
me: 'oh, really? but those common things keep bring women flying when they got proposed'
friend: 'hmm, i think i have an idea'
me: 'you tell me'
friend: 'with flower'
me: laugh..'but that's more common'
friend: 'not, if i lay her down in a bed of rosses'
me: 'seriously?'
friend: 'you heard me'

And what surprising me. He ordered a thousand red roses from the floral shop. And not just that, he ordered an engage ring with a beautiful rose's shape. I'm really shock when he told me by phone, 'you are so in love!' i said.

The next day, he design the room of his girlfriend as he want. In the evening after office, this lucky beautiful lady was jump when found her room just like a queen lounge with a thousand red roses on her bad with one cute red box on the top where the ring's sitting. 

Not much happened that night except the happy whispered while crying with saying: 'ya, marry me'. It was so fantastic. My friend gave me a memorable moment to share, say it with flower, but not in a common ways :)

Malang, June 2010.

'till it become something!



It was nothing 
I would be never know how failed and how succeed it was 
sin or bless
Just nothing,
.. if i can not wait 'till it become something!

I know things do change as people do
Even a war will be a happiness some time in the future
Nothing left to be regret, live must go ahead


I am a person who has many steps forward
I am a woman who has many good things that others don't
I am one of these people who have been many through for a better life

And, do i have any reason to not say 'Thanks'?
No :)

4 days before leaving Jakarta